A Smile On Your Face

I think I'm losing it. 

And if I'm not losing it I think sooner or later I will lose it, or at least start to lose it.

I need to compose myself. I need to, um, go to a far far away place and relax and get my groove and bounce back faster and stronger than I've ever bounced back before.

Reminder: Trials are less than 2 months away, SPM is about 4 months away, I can barely keep up with my studies, I don't have a photographic memory, I wish I had a photographic memory, I'm never going to get a scholarship, I'll disappoint my parents, I'll die without ever getting my dream job or ever publishing a novel, I'll have to get 99 cats to live with me and I'll die alone, old and hagged and wrinkly. :(

But well, this time the case is different. Instead of whining and telling you that I had better start studying, this time I'll tell you that I HAVE started studying. I mean, face the facts: besides the super geniuses, who hasn't?

Unfortunately, with the speed I'm going, I'll only be able to finish studying by the age of 73. 

But I can't help it! Everytime I sit down with a textbook or a reference book I have the tendency to go through every passage/paragraph in detail or at least until I can remember the important points. 

Hence the regret that I didn't start revising earlier and curse my self-confidence. I was so sure this was going to be another PMR year, that I would be able to finish studying everything in time. But I'm beginning to think otherwise. :S

Furthermore I still have so many things to do: layouts to design and to make sure they get designed and are handed in on time, data to gather and to arrange them properly, all in all- to make sure I do my part in the publishing of the yearbook before graduation. 

But you know what? Heck, I can do this. Nothing in this world is impossible, nothing in this world in unachievable. We're humans, top of the food chain, the ones who can do anything, who are the smartest living creatures on this earth and also the dumbest. But that's beside the point. The point is that, well, if Einstein can discover that E equals to MC square and Edison the lightbulb, then I bloody well can do this. :)

Glitter In My Hair

I know it's a bit late for a Sports Day 2010 post, but I just had to record the experience down before all gets lost in the midst of the exam-frenzy and um, other stuff.

It was a great experience, being able to take part in something as exciting as the preparation for Sports Day. All the painting (non-removable paint, and I've got stains of it all over at least 4 of my school PE shirt & school pinafore) and the burning of egg trays to chase away the mosquitoes, the chatting, gossiping, laughing and who could forget the paper mache-ing? :)
Then, when all is done, you step back, take a look at your masterpiece and sigh in satisfaction. :)

And of course, staying overnight on the eve of Sports Day in preparation of costumes and khemah decoration. I'm not sure I did much during the night before Sports Day besides running around delivering stuff and trying to write/memorize a script to explain to the judges about the theme of Red House (The Night Before Christmas) on Sports Day.
But it was an experience, being able to sleep on the floor of the Sports Centre, trying to avoid the shiny bright spotlights above from blinding your eyes while you try to drift off into a dreamless sleep. My sleeping bag and fold-able pillow was taken away from me, so I curled up on the hard wooden floor and drifted off to sleep, only to be awaken one hour later at 4am by the talking of voices.

Sports Day was nothing but awesome. I dirtied my last & new red shirt, sprinkled glitter in my hair, painted my hand, put on a red hair band and tied a red ribbon, clapped, cheered, screamed, laughed, cried, hugged, sat in the sun without bothering to put sunblock and got both my arms sunburned. And the result of all that was that Merah came in first for both marching/formation & khemah decoration.


The marching has been recorded down and protected in my camera (LEGENDARY!) and our decoration items have their place of glory in the Foyer A for one week. :D
GO MERAH!

Like Crushed Peas

AARRRGH to today.
The weather was hot and humid, and this unlucky thing that never should have happened happened.

I hope our luck goes up or I shall have to start hunting for 4 leaved clovers.

Laughter & A Cheerful Disposition

Hello, haven't been blogging for quite a while now. :)
Well actually I doubt anyone's been blogging lately because everything is so hectic.
It's like we all boarded the GoingOffToSomewhereExpress and the train master lost control of the the train and everything's just full steam ahead.

But today I've decided to take a day off all that, and have a little break. :)

Recently I've learned that I cannot do everything even though I want to, and sacrifices have to be made under certain circumstances. Well obviously this is a theory that everyone knows but I think to be able to grasp hold of the theory and apply it to reality is a totally different matter.
So right now I shall prioritize and stop distracting myself when I should be studying and stuffing myself with food whenever I feel like it. I need a healthy diet of food to eat, that's what I need.
Exams are about 3 weeks away, and so is Sports Day.
Personally, I'd prefer it if exams were pushed back until the holidays, then at least I'll have something to do while my parents are waltzing away in Italy.

I feel like time is passing really quickly, but at the same time passing slowly. Yes, I know, what a contradiction, you may think. But it's true: one week feels like a month, so I feel as if time passed really quickly, but then when you look back and find out it's only about a week ago since you turned 17, you realize that time isn't passing all that quickly. I'm not sure if that even makes sense, but that's how I feel. Hence the contradiction. Haha.

Alright, time for some videos and Facebook. :)

Tik Tok, On The Clock

Today felt like a shorter day compared to yesterday, but none less busy. It's good to take a little time out to blog even if you are busy, I think it helps relax the mind and body a little.

So anyway, today was a pretty productive day: I managed to complete a quarter of my Chemistry Folio in school with Nic (Nic, you didn't even use all the reference books I brought to school whatonearth) and I had a nice, enjoyable time laughing my stomach empty listening to all the jokes Aaron L and Sean were cracking. However, there was this slight moment where for some reason I felt a little faint, but I managed to get a sandwich courtesy of Nic's one dollar. Thanks, Nic.
OH and today I made a new friend. It was a pretty unusual way of making friends, but yeah. Random.

On the other hand, work is still piling up and I still lack sleep. I haven't been sleeping well lately and I absolutely have no idea why. Hmm, I'm not stressed out about school work or anything, and I don't have any distressing thoughts before I go to bed.
Maybe it's my guilty conscience torturing me about my horrible exam results. I mean, I have been studying hard, but this term my brain seems to filter all that I've studied. Lucky my sister, who kept complaining that she didn't study at all but can magically produce superb results. I on the other hand am so hare-brained that I can only remember certain information that are actually of no use to my academic syllabus, and needs to have Physics concepts nailed to my inner brain to actually understand it.
Oh well, if there's one thing my sister can't beat me at it's card games. Yahoo! Haha.

Alright, now back to work. I'm planning to have everything, and I mean everything cleared off by this weekend. :)

Smile, Charlie Chaplin

I've decided.
Even though the workload is piling up, what with all the projects and the assignments and the designs, I've decided that there's no point in thinking about how I might not be able to finish all my work and complaining about it. Because you know, life's too short to be unhappy and unsatisfied. 

I feel like our first term break was ages ago when it really was only a week ago; and the past 2 days of school felt like a week full of classes.
However, I've decided that I will get through this month of hectic-ness and I will try to smile through everything- even the tough times (if there are tough times, which I hope there won't be) because what's the point of moans and a frowning face? Moaning makes you sound like you're in pain and dying and frowning might give you a distorted face. Stress makes you shorten your life span.
I certainly don't want to shorten my life span. I've got 117 things to do on my List of Things I Want To Do Before I Die.
And if I cannot handle high school senior year how am I ever going to handle college, am I right? I know some people crack under small pressure and some can withstand strain until it reaches their breaking point. But I believe one must never, ever cave in to pressure and strain (I don't think I've ever broken down because of pressure and I hope I never do); and I think that one must be strong and see the positive side of things (which is why I shall now stop dwelling on the negative things and be a MAD HATTER). :D

Do you know we humans see the negative side of things more than the positive side of things? That's pretty much why we hang onto every word of gossip and remember the bad stuff about people more than the good stuff. Psychology, yo! ;)
I'm not sure how much I've complained about and I'm not sure how frequent my complaints are but I realize it's not really good to complain about things, so I apologize to the people who might have been annoyed by my complaints.
So yes, I vow to make the best out of everything and try to see the fun part out of everything (I cannot promise this because right now I don't see the fun part of doing Chemistry and Moral projects and Physics PEKA). I am definitely looking forward to next month because there's April Fool's and my birthday. :) Yay!

I SHALL LET POSITIVITY RULE MY LIFE OH YES (with a little exception of complaints sometimes maybe).

If I can get through this month and still be aliveby the end of it, I shall bungee jump off Mount Everest.

Aha you see so yes: Smile, Charlie Chaplin.
:)

Study More.

If I can get through this month and still be alive by the end of it, I shall bungee jump off Mount Everest.

Let Me Tell You About My Day

Oh my god.
I don't think I've ever been this hungry in my life.
I don't think I've been this busy until I have simply no time to eat anything in my life.
I don't think I've ever been so happy to eat an omelette in my life.

In the midst of handling the club data today, the only food I got to eat from when I woke up this morning until I left school to go for tuition are TianYoon's Tiger biscuits and a cup of wedges. Seriously.
This morning I woke up late, and I skipped breakfast at home, deciding I would just eat breakfast in school. But for some reason when I reached school, I forgot to eat my breakfast. =.= so, no breakfast for me. Then during recess, I ignored my grumbling stomach and headed straight to the edboard room to continue editing the club data that I was editing this morning just after assembly. No recess food for me. :(
after school, I continued editing the club data until I had to go for my class page photo-taking. In the middle of the photo-taking I leave for my edboard meeting, only to leave for the last shot of class photo-taking before returning for the meeting.
And after the meeting, I went straight to tuition and only came home about an hour ago. No lunch for me. :'(
And that pretty much sums up my day.

So today I found out that:
1. I don't understand how people can starve themselves for a bleedin' diet!
2. My hair still smells good even after one stinky sweaty day at school. :)
3. Fried omelette tastes really, really yummy.
4. We need a bigger edboard room, aircond and many many more computers.and maybe like a soundproof room for meetings. And maybe like a stereo too. :D
5. Gardenia's chocolate muffin doesn't taste as good as I thought it would be.
6. One day I would like to go bring lots and lots of food to Africa and let the Africans eat a healthy and delicious meal. A meal that is not even fit for a king. Okay i shall write that down in my List of Things I Want to Do Before I Die.

and tomorrow I shall say: TGI Friday!
:D

Monday Blues

Arrgh, the Chinese New Year holiday laziness has taken it's toll on me. :(
Honestly speaking, it's not like I don't have the energy to do, well, things. I know I can and will do things once I set my mind to it, but the keyword here is laziness :(

I want (and really need) my mojo back!
There're so many things I still have to do, and that doesn't include studyig for the exams which, bytheway, are just ONEMEASLYWEEK away! :O

I had my first real experience of Monday Blues today when I went to school feeling less cheerful and less energetic than I usually would've felt, felt so tired and slightly pathetic in class- being antisocial (only for today, I promise. Tonight I shall sleep early and wake up feeling like I own the world) and worrying about things that I never, never should have worried about in first place. All those together with the heat made me feel absolutely miserable and...vunerable.
Unfortunately, after school wasn't any better (at least literature class was fruitful) and it was only after I had sunken into the cozy sofa of my air-conditioned study room did I feel slightly better.
And then I started to think about what a complete bore I was in school today. My classmates
were probably thinking: whatonearth what's wrong with her, looking so emo. =.=

well that's alright, because tomorrow shall be a better day. :)
And as an attempt to get my mojo back (and to stop the laziness before I get too attatched to it and throw away a perfectly good senior year in high school) after this blog post I shall go grab my school bag and finish doing my homework and then I shall go study like I've studied
before, because I want to go catch Chicago The Musical in Singapore this April/May and the only way I can ever persuade my parents to let me go is if I get good results. :/

Crackin'-Lackin'

I had a hair cut yesterday.
My fringe looks exactly the same as it does back in Form 3.
I guess it doesn't look too bad; I could do a lot worse with say - being bald.
Don't get me wrong, nothing's wrong with being bald; it's just that I wouldn't look nice bald.

Life's been a bit hectic lately, what with homework building up and having to stay back for after-school activities. I miss eating lunch at home. Eating the same canteen food for 5 years does not do one any good, especially when they deep-fry just about everything (well, sometimes I can't help but eat the fries- they go good with pepper).

SO, Chinese New Year being just around the corner, I'm pretty sure everyone has plans: either to stay at home, watch TV and eat a bowlful of tangerines (I think that's what I did this one year; didn't do much relative-visiting) or to drive all the way back to the parents' home town, walk around greeting all your relatives and collecting one's precious red packets. :)
YAY CHINESE NEW YEAR IN SINGAPORE FOR ME! :D
Chinese New Year and Valentine's Day, all packed in one. We'll see cheongsam-dressed cupids shooting their love arrows all around. :D
HAHAHA. How cool would that be?
Someone should dress up like that for Halloween.

:)

Heavy Breathing

I could be sick. Could be. 
I've been sniffing and sneezing the whole day long in school. Plus I feel really lazy and sleepy and I didn't have the mood to do anything in class today.

Nevertheless, I still went for my 5km jog today. And I'm happy to say that there has been an improvement from the last jog, though very slight. So, thank you PeiShe and Aaron for coming on the jog today. Especially Aaron, because I know he was reluctant to come along and would've rather stayed back to play Modern Warfare 2 but you were still a gentleman to come along, so yeah. :)
And PeiShe, I'm so proud of you, because I know how tired you were and how hot the weather was and how we were all sweating like pigs but you still finished the jog and that's the spirit! :)

Anyway, I'm not sure if I should go jog tomorrow because the tiredness from the jog has finally kicked in. I still have homework to complete and tuition to go in another 1 and a half hour. VERY LAZY AH.

OH. One more thing before I end my post: GLEE.

NOAH PUCKERMAN IS AWESOME. :D

Daydreams. :)

Saturday and school just don't match.
I mean, who likes to go to school on a Saturday? To go to school on a weekend and listen to teachers who, like us students, wish they could just spend their Saturdays sleeping in and taking a break from school.
But I guess today wasn't as boring as it could've been. :)

Woke up earlier than usual today and went to school. During assembly I knocked over my Sigg bottle and it got a scratch. :/ Dragged myself to Chemistry Lab and had a lot of fun pouring chemicals and seeing the results (the Brown Ring was just supa cool). Drew graphs during Math and wrote one quarter of an essay in BM. Sat down in a group during Civic and had a discussion about our Civic project (we decided to raise funds by selling cookies and cacti).

After school it took me one hour to get home instead of the usual 20 minute drive from school to home because of the stupid stupid traffic jam. After reaching home I went out for tuition again in a mere 45 minutes. Learnt more about Linear Law in Add. Math tuition and drew more graphs. Found out that we'll be learning about Integration (the reverse of Differentiation) in the next chapter of Add Math when I'm still having a little trouble coping with Differentiation, but I'm pretty sure I'll manage, because I have to, because if I don't I'll die this year. Literally.

And after 2 hours of tuition I came home and here I am, blogging about my day. And now that I'm done blogging I CAN GO WATCH GLEE YES WHEE! :D

Specifically,

This afternoon, I am proud to say, that even the blazing sun failed to destroy the will of Rachel Ho (that's me, just in case you didn't know that you dumbo), Lee Pei She, Michelle Anne Leong, Nicholas Lim and Leong Chi Han to jalk the cross-country track as practice for the real cross-country day run.

And even though we missed a turn (or was it a couple of turns), and we had to jalk the wrong way back to school, we still managed to finish our, um, challenge of jalking 5km. :)
So yes, even though we were all panting and trying to expand our lungs to let more oxygen flow through our brain so that we wouldn't just keel over suddenly or whatever, we still had fun. RIGHT?

So yeah. I don't care what you guys say, I'm pulling you for another round of jalking next week.
You guys are awesome. :D

Feeling Goofy On A Maunday

So the Editorial Board got a new computer today.
You should've seen the look on Aaron and Nicholas' faces when they saw the computer.

It was like, when they stepped into the room in the morning, and when their faces turned and they caught a glimpse of the new Acer computer sitting demurely on the computer table, their lips broke into a smile and their faces just...glowed. :D
And then they went straight to greet the new computer before greeting any of their fellow Edboarders who were in the room.
Nice one guys.  Ahahaha.
They looked like they could've just married the computer that very minute or something. HAHAHAHA.

So anyway, school was fine today (I'm finally, finally blogging about school!). In fact, school was so fine that I didn't even feel embarrassed when I misplaced my foot into the drain (thank god the drain was dry) and stumbled a little after school today. Haha.
Also, school was so fine, that I actually forgot that I had to pee. I finished drinking all my water by the 8th period and I told Shu that I have to go to the ladies afterwards because I needed to pee. And by the 10th period I totally forgot about the fact that I had to pee until ShuLin reminded me to.
How weird is that? HAHA.

Anyway, ut vita! :)

I Brought Three Rubber Bands To School Today

Oh man, I am so tired now. Physically tired but mentally hanging on.
Does that even make sense? I think my grammar's all wrong, but whatever lah. :) Whee.

So, GERKO Day today was really fun. I got to skip classes (I doubt my teachers were really teaching anyway), got to witness the crowd of students pondering over which club they should join, got to sit down on the floor to finish my English essay, got to walk around taking random pictures, got to be awesome in my last year of GERKO Day enjoyment. I cannot believe I'm graduating this year. 

GERKO Day duty was just the least of it all. After school and after eating a lunch consisting of asam laksa + meehoon and french fries, I went to play frisbee. And although I was initially rather reluctant, it turned out to be pretty fun. So yeah. I wouldn't mind playing it again. :)

It's better than playing frisbee with my dog, because you see, dogs cannot throw the frisbee back at you.
Ahah, ahah. :)

Peace, Is All Anyone's Looking For

Lately, I find that my happy days tend to have been turned bad by certain events.
I'm not an unreasonable person, and I do try to consider and look at things in different perspectives.
However, I AM a human-being, and being that I have feelings and am entitled to my own opinion.
I can understand the complication of being a human-being, and thus you don't see me being a rebellious teenager, trying to invade into the minds of other people and making them see things MY way. Because the world doesn't just consist of ME and my opinion, I have to learn to respect other people's thoughts as well. And I do.
And when I find it frustrating that people don't see the same way that I do, I explain to them and try to get them to understand what my thoughts are.
If I have ever gone out of hand, I deeply and truly apologize. I'm hot-tempered and my agitated thoughts tend to be channeled to impulsiveness.

But please, back off, and show a little respect to what we have here. We're not looking for trouble, and we thank you not to bring trouble to us. 

That's all we, all I ask.

p/s: Oh yes, I want to thank the darlings who have given me advice and cheered me up during the time of my frustration, rants and when I was feeling upset. What would I do without you people.
MWAH. :)

And We're Back To School

So Nick's birthday surprise didn't turn out quite the way I thought/hoped it might be. Somehow the birthday surprises we planned don't turn out the perfect way we want it to be. But anyway, as long as we enjoy ourselves and have a good time, it's all good.

So Nick, I hope you enjoyed a very HAPPY SEVENTEENTH BIRTHDAY. :)

And sorry again for the whole cold-shoulder-ignoring thing in the morning. That was supposed to be all part of the surprise plan. :S

You Know That I'll Always Love You ;)

My arm muscles feel sore, after spending the whole of Thursday distributing school magazines to about 115 teachers in the morning session. And it's wasn't the easy type of magazine-distributing, the sit-there-and-wait-for-people-to-come-and-collect-the-magazines type, oh no. It was the walking-around-the-whole-school-carrying-10-magazines-at-each-round-looking-for-teachers-to-give-them-their-magazines-and-making-sure-that-they-sign-this-piece-of-pink-paper.

Ask PeiShe how it feels, I bet her muscles are all seized up too. But well, it was good exercise.

Anyway, my sister's coming home! :)

After 4 days of being in the hospital and going through surgery, she's coming home. I cannot tell you how proud I am of her strength to endure the pain she went through (and is still going through) after the surgery, and it amazes me how fast she's recovering. This shows that we women, are tough creatures.

But what I cannot believe, is that after the straightening of her spine, my 13 year old sister is now as tall as I am. She's 3 years younger than I am and she's the same height as me! I wouldn't mind so much if she was born a year younger but NO.

People have already started asking me if I'm her elder sister or younger sister.

!!!

What's more is that she'll keep sprouting, and if she doesn't stop growing so fast she'll be 6 FEET TALL. DO YOU WANT TO BE 6 FEET TALL CHELSEA?

I, on the other hand, can only dream of growing another 5 cm, for I have not sprouted at all since June this year. And you do not want to know how I found out about that without measuring myself with the measuring tape.

So later on, whenever you see a picture of my sister and I in it, you'll notice that I'll be wearing high heels. Oh yeah, that's right.

Quantum Bungaloo

Today is THE WORST DAY ever.

It was so bad, that I almost cried in school.

And then it got even worse when I was standing there waiting for Melody while she was discussing questions and answers at the top of her voice!

And everyone was so into discussion that no one even noticed my I-am-going-to-die-die-die-die-die face, not that I wanted them to notice it anyway.

ARRRUUGGHH.

The only thing I'm glad about now is that it's the weekends, glad that I have two free days of revision so as not to screw up the rest of my papers.

And this is not the kind of study-freak post where the author claims that she's going to die when all she really got was perhaps a B+ instead of an aimed A but is the kind of post where when the author she's going to die, she REALLY IS.

Letters From A Nut

I burnt my finger today. :(

At school. :(

My left hand ring finger to be exact. :(

Now there's like a red scar, like a scorch mark or something on my finger.

OMG! What if that marks stays there forever?

Then when I get engaged some day and when my fiance proposes to me on one knee and wants to put the engagement ring on my finger, he'll look at it and say "Honey, the ring can't fit because your finger is still swollen as it was XX years ago when you burnt you hand in high school."

AAAAAH! Not that that'll be a big problem because rings can be exchanged but the whole proposal will be RUINEDDDD.

OR what if the burnt mark brings me all the way down to my wedding day, and when my husband is about to put my wedding ring on my finger, he glances at my finger and says "Sweetheart, I just realized how red and ugly and swollen and fat your finger is."

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!!!

T_________________________T

Oh wait, I just examined my finger and realized that my burnt mark isn't red, it's more of a pinkish colour.

So then my husband will instead say, "Sweetheart, I just realized how pink and ugly and swollen and fat your finger is."

EEEEP! :(

But other than that, and another thing, I had a really fun time in school today reading my Letters From A Nut Scholastic book that I received just this morning when I found this parcel on my desk, which I heard arrived on Saturday and nobody even BOTHERED to bring it home for me for safekeeping and instead left it on my desk to rot (not that it did) for the weekend.

Bah.