Like Crushed Peas

AARRRGH to today.
The weather was hot and humid, and this unlucky thing that never should have happened happened.

I hope our luck goes up or I shall have to start hunting for 4 leaved clovers.

I Feel Like Cyring

I'm feeling very temperamental nowadays. It's like I can get all hyped up, excited and optimistic about something and before end of the day I feel very good about myself, but one minute later- BOOM. I'm all sad and sentimental and upset and jealous and hurt and possibly everything negative feeling you can come up with.
So after that BOOM, I just sit there thinking, and thinking, and thinking, and thinking. And after thinking for about 100 years, I feel better.

I can't just run upstairs and grab my iPod and listen to music and feel all better in one second like I used to be able too. Now music therapy doesn't even help. Something is wrong with me. It's not like I don't know the reason to my temperament; I have a pretty good idea about it actually. And it's not what you think it is.  But I just hope that it's not it, and that it's just my hormones playing me, or PMS or something.

See, something is so wrong with me I can't even type right.

When There's No Light To Break Up The Dark

I will not complain. I will appreciate everything that I have and not complain.

Quantum Bungaloo

Today is THE WORST DAY ever.

It was so bad, that I almost cried in school.

And then it got even worse when I was standing there waiting for Melody while she was discussing questions and answers at the top of her voice!

And everyone was so into discussion that no one even noticed my I-am-going-to-die-die-die-die-die face, not that I wanted them to notice it anyway.

ARRRUUGGHH.

The only thing I'm glad about now is that it's the weekends, glad that I have two free days of revision so as not to screw up the rest of my papers.

And this is not the kind of study-freak post where the author claims that she's going to die when all she really got was perhaps a B+ instead of an aimed A but is the kind of post where when the author she's going to die, she REALLY IS.

The Stamp Of Approval

I typed out a really really long post about copycats of blogs, but then I deleted it all.

Because Aaron said,

Aaron... Is so bored says:

just give her the benifit of the doubt lah

FINE. But just you know, if this happens again, you'll have to scratch out your 2nd Explanation, you hear me?

Facebook Addict

I promised myself that I would study hard this holiday.

But it's the holidays and before I knew it I found myself sitting in front of the laptop and watching TV shows and BOOM! half the day was gone.

And so I went to the condo to get some distraction-free-study-hours time and I ended digging up every single DVD I could find to watch.

I am such a failure.

Letters From A Nut

I burnt my finger today. :(

At school. :(

My left hand ring finger to be exact. :(

Now there's like a red scar, like a scorch mark or something on my finger.

OMG! What if that marks stays there forever?

Then when I get engaged some day and when my fiance proposes to me on one knee and wants to put the engagement ring on my finger, he'll look at it and say "Honey, the ring can't fit because your finger is still swollen as it was XX years ago when you burnt you hand in high school."

AAAAAH! Not that that'll be a big problem because rings can be exchanged but the whole proposal will be RUINEDDDD.

OR what if the burnt mark brings me all the way down to my wedding day, and when my husband is about to put my wedding ring on my finger, he glances at my finger and says "Sweetheart, I just realized how red and ugly and swollen and fat your finger is."

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!!!

T_________________________T

Oh wait, I just examined my finger and realized that my burnt mark isn't red, it's more of a pinkish colour.

So then my husband will instead say, "Sweetheart, I just realized how pink and ugly and swollen and fat your finger is."

EEEEP! :(

But other than that, and another thing, I had a really fun time in school today reading my Letters From A Nut Scholastic book that I received just this morning when I found this parcel on my desk, which I heard arrived on Saturday and nobody even BOTHERED to bring it home for me for safekeeping and instead left it on my desk to rot (not that it did) for the weekend.

Bah.

Blank.

I shall not complain about it, because complaining doesn't make me a better person or anything.

So I shall just let it go, and enjoy the rest of my Sunday doing my bloody Civic project.

>FJADHSKJFHKJSBDF NQE)(U@(*$&am!!!!!!

Squeezing Limes

Here're a few things that I'd like to blog about:

Firstly and foremostly, on congratulating my sister CHELSEA, who has managed to kick her butt into the school's inter-class chinese debate competition finals even though she has no experience whatsoever in the formal art of debating but has had lots of chances to argue and negotiate in Monopoly. Which I bet it helps in the debate, right?

CONGRATULATIONS again! :)

As a dear sister I am always here for you in need of any support (any at all) and that I think you could really, really fulfill an awesome career in Law.

I wish I have your kind of brains.

Secondly, I went shopping on Wednesday after school with mommy, who bought me a 70 dollar pair of beige heels (which may not be that nice in the eyes of some) which are about 2 inches + high, and have been my first ever pair of high heels. Yes, that's right- all my life I've been wearing flip flops and sandals and flats and kitten heels but never once, high heels.

And so, I feel so grown-up and lady like and possibly- womanly. Haha!

Thirdly, I have figured out what to wear exactly for the Patriotic Month celebration with what shoes to match and everything. In short, I've planned how I'm supposed to look while parading the erm, parade? I just hope I don't look ghastly.

Fourthly, I feel so insecure about my future. As in my what-college-or-university-to-apply-to future.

Fifth, when I look at everyone around me and their talents, I feel like an utterly useless, talent-less loser.

That's all.

Oliver Twist, Charles Dickens

Guess what? :D

Okay wait, don't guess.

I won't tell you anything anyway. *beams*

Oh yes yes, I tell you ah- OHMYGOD.

The other day I was transferring music from the laptop to my pendrive, when I accidentally deleted all of my songs. That's right, all...600 of them I think (yes I know it may count as really little songs for some of you, but still)?

And now I have to re-download them from scratch! :(

This really sucks LOH.

I spent months and months downloading all those songs. You know?

Utterpants.

Ouuuuuch. My legs aches all over!

I don't even know why.

I didn't do any running today, I didn't stand up for 2 hours straight, so I wonder why my muscles hurt.

Oh argh I have my Chinese journal to complete.

I wonder what I should write about-

Oh! I could write about The Great Mouse Incident!

Hah!

Wicked.

I was sick of the Civic project, but now, I am sicker of it.

First of, Civic project consists of looking up on the history of the Malaysian state flags and coat of arms- what a stupid thing.

Secondly, they don't just provide such information online. Who would want to post anything about the history of our state flags on the internet?! Who would even bother to?

Thirdly, talk about unfairness in my Civic project. This is why I try to avoid group work as much as possible. I would love to rant all about it, but I shall not. Ranting about it won't change anything, since I only have 2 days left until I have to hand the bloody project in.

So this is all I will say: URRRRRGH.,

I Guess Second Best, Is All I Will Know

B'gah!

For once I have no idea what to blog about. :S

My original idea was to blog about yesterday (you know, Pn LYK's retirement) and to rant about it (because of you-know-why) but then I gave up. I mean, seriously, whatever lah.

You know, I feel like I haven't been connecting much with my friends. I get all these swelled up feelings in my chest that I just have to blow it up in someone's face (which I usually do), but then, nowadays I just...don't anymore.

I don't know why.

I guess it's just because I have this fear that people might judge me, or think the worse/worst about certain situations, or raise their eyebrows or laugh at me.

And the thing is, all these things have happened, all the time, last time, when I blurted whatever I felt like blurting.

But, I guess it's just not the same anymore. I prefer to tell it/something to someone when I feel like it's the right time for them to digest the information that I am going to tell them, and I do it with a lot of hesitation and awkwardness.

They say a lot about teenagers' hormones changing, and they are so right.

Moderation Moderating

All I wanted was to start over from a nice clean slate, but I guess that's not ever going to be possible now, is it?

My fingers aches. I've been scaling down photos since 3 hours ago. And I'm still not done yet.

3 more photos, one more page to go.

Seriously, sometimes life just sucks.

Four, Three, Two, One

The laptop's being a total bitch right now.

All the programmes are working very slowly.

And this is the exact moment where I need the laptop to be as efficient as possible because I have a BigAssignment to do.

Deadline: Monday.

Going to Cheer 2009 tomorrow so I won't be home for perhaps the entire day and thus I need to finish my BigAssignment tonight.

Erm, let's see what else?

Still addicted to Facebook, slowly ditching Twitter because most of the people I know don't even HAVE a Twitter, haven't written in my diary for ages, oh and I get this feeling that one of my friends' is mad at me.

Maybe I'm just being overly-sensitive.
I have no idea.

I Failed Additional Mathematics, By 2 Marks

Yes I might as well announce it to the whole wide world, since I'm not like the only one who failed. I just need two marks to pass, and damnit I will dig up two marks if it takes the rest of my life day. If only momsie could understand that examinations in FormFour are not as easy as it used to be back when I was in the lower form. :/

But still, that's no excuse to my failing my Add Math. I could've done waaay better.

By the bye, I got tagged by my sis, and this must be one of the most interesting tags I've ever seen! Although I have to resort to using Google Search when it comes to a few answers. :)

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It's harder than it looks! Copy to your own blog, erase my answers, enter yours, and tag ten people. Use the first letter of your name to answer each of the following questions. They have to be real - nothing made up! If the person before you had the same first initial, you must use different answers. You cannot use any word twice and you can't use your name for the boy/girl name question.

What is your name : Rachel Ho

2. A four Letter Word : Rope (it was the second word that popped into my head!)

3. A boy's Name : Errr, Rick.

4. A girl's Name : Rachel! :D

5. An occupation : Radio DJ

6. A color : RED.

7. Something you'll wear : Raincoat

8. A drink : Root beer

9. A food : Ravioli

10. Something found in the bathroom : Erm, a rug?

11. A place : Russia! (I love their accent) :)

12. A reason for being late : Rush hour traffic (typical)

13. Something you'd shout : RAWR!

14. A movie title : Ratatouille (I have always loved Pixar cartoons and I always will!)

15. A book title : Romeo and Juliet! <3>

Quote of the day:
Seck Wei [A.Wake] says:
anyway brb
saya go pom pom
Rachel says:
HAHA

That's right SeckWei, you just got quoted. X)

Growing Fertilisers

I didn't know how to do a quarter half the questions of the Add Math paper today.

The front part was easy, and I finished that like, in 1 and a half hours.

And then I just sat there. Waiting. Staring at my paper. And then I solved two questions that I initially didn't know how to do!

But that was it. And all that kept popping up in my head was "screw Add Math, screw Add Math. I don't care I just wanna go home". Because I've had my worst, and Add Math wasn't that hard compared to Chemistry. Because my Chem was just a piece of shit.

Bio was, well, pretty bad too.

What with the teacher who kept reminding us how many minutes we have left before we have hand in our paper.

You can FEEL THE PRESSURE I tell you. The IMMENSE PRESSURE.

I was just surprised my hands weren't sweating or shaking with anxiety and panic.

Well anyway, it's over.

And tomorrow shall be a happy happy day, because it's TheDayRachelGoesToSingaporeToAttendHerCousin'sWeddingAfterSchool!

Whee!

I LOVE SINGAPORE. :)

Spare Me Your Freakin' Dirty Looks Now Don't Blame Me

Chemistry sucked today

I flunked it

I'm doomed

I'm done for

This is the end

BAHH!

Rachel's Quote for the Day:

What is the (friggin') point of having a textbook if you can't even refer to it?!

Point proven: Physics textbook, CHEMISTRY TEXTBOOK.

Mad World

OHMYGOSH I am so tired of studying.

Except that, I didn't REALLY study for 15 hours a day like I originally planned to.

I mean, I DID study. While watching TV, that is. And listening to my ipod. And taking frequent "study breaks", and walking my dog, and playing with my dog. And texting. Lots and lots of texting.

But still, one can get tired of studying when one is SUPPOSED to be on holiday had not one's school stupidly set the exams to finish AFTER the holidays instead of BEFORE like THE REST THE WORLD.

Wow I just realised I used a lot of caps for this blog post.

Well never mind, maybe that'll attract more people to read this pathetic blog of mine.

Anyway, I think the exam spirit depression has hit a lot of people. Well, except me. I must be the sole person in CHS who doesn't feel a single thing about the exams.

Everywhere I text I get replies like 'What have you finished studying?' or 'Have you finished [insert subject here]?' or 'Will you study PJK and Civic? No right? Because no time, right?'

God, this holiday really really sucks.

Exam's arriving in one day and I am so not fully prepared.

Battle Of The Brains

This has become a habit of mine- blogskin hunting.

But I can't help it, there're so many nice and pretty blogskins out there just waiting for someone to use them. Haha.

Anyway, have been playing Restaurant City on Facebook (though I wouldn't exactly say obsessively) and fooling around on Photobucket.

Just remembered that the only subject that I finished studying is Literature, and I haven't even started on History yet. Yes, I know, I'm so screwed. And I really have to stop saying that and get down on my hands and knees and crawl to my History reference book.

But History is just so....boring and old. Especially Malaysian History. I'd rather World History a whole lot more. I even prefer Add Math and Math over History, and I'm a rather sucky person when it comes to numbers!

Went to Popular today and bought a whole bunch of worksheets to help me get started (like, for real, serious studying) on my studying. I have at least 2 History workbooks so that should get me into the full mood to study this particularly boring subject of mine tomorrow today.

Besides that, I think I'm about 55% prepared for next week's midterms.

Plus I just realised that my post titles stink.

And do I really look like a Singaporean? :)

Pardon any grammar mistakes, I'm just feeling awfully sleepy.

Night.